I think there’s a point in everyone’s life where they reach a crossroads in their life. Mine was last night. I was crying on the phone with my mom reaching the lowest point I’ve been in a long time and she tells me
“Is this the example you are going to set? That it’s ok to just give up when things are going wrong.”
I don’t know why but her saying that struck a cord in me. If I died I would be telling everyone who loved me that it was ok to not hold on when times are tough. I refuse to let that be the lesson I pass down. That’s when I decided enough is enough. I’m done playing this game of self pity when I have so much in my life to be grateful for.
That’s why I’m starting this blog. To help myself, and maybe just one person out there. If I could help inspire one person to know that their life is worth it then this all is worth it to me.
This is also me just free falling from the sky. I gave up writing months ago because when I put myself out there people criticized me telling me my writing wasn’t good enough or how the grammar was all wrong. I was afraid. I put my shell on like I’ve done so many times in my life and stopped simply because I didn’t feel good enough. Now I’m writing because I want to and nobody is going to stop me this time.
This blog is going to be named “Positively Optimistic” because that’s what I’m going to do. I am going to challenge myself to be optimistic in every situation I find myself in everyday for the rest of the year. I am going to change my thinking and do things that will help change my life for the better. While I’m doing this I’m going to share my adventure everyday with whoever is reading this.
The reason I’m making this challenge for a full year is because my birthday was on the 12th and ever since I was 8 years old I hated my birthday. I remember telling myself on my 8th birthday that I would never be happy and for the almost one and a half decades I have kept that mindset up. However next year on my birthday instead of feeling upset or wallowing in self pity I want to be out in the world having fun with friends and doing the things I want to do.
Starting with today I’m losing that Negative Nancy talk and just getting out there and just going to do. It will take hard work and determination, but if I have learned anything in my 23 years of living is that I have exactly that.
Now how am I going about this? What actions am I going to take each day? I am going to start with a few goals to do each day and work my way up and go from there. Here they are:
Now they might seem little to some people but that’s ok. This is my journey. And no matter how big or little your goal is it helps you get one step closer to where you want to be.
Today I accomplished my goals I made for myself. I can’t stress to you how much I missed exercising. I did it a lot when I first lost weight but then I started putting it off when I started working a ton.
Today I ran for just a little bit but even with that little run it made me feel so much better. I highly recommend if you are feeling down just go exercise. You may say you don’t feel like it, but honestly when you don’t feel like doing something it means you should do it that much more.
It’s amazing how much better I feel today just making these little improvements. Like I said before they can go a long way and I can’t wait to see where this crazy, positive journey takes me. I’ll talk to you all tomorrow,