“Where there is a will, there is a way. If there is a chance in a million that you can do something, anything, to keep what you want from ending, do it. Pry the door open or, if need be, wedge your foot in that door and keep it open.” —Pauline Kael
Today I spent the day just kind of relaxing. I drove my car to get more practice in and as a treat for scaring myself I went to go see “The Last Showman.” I was very impressed with this movie and it just re-enforced in me that if I want something in life I should just go after it. What are we waiting for? Tomorrow. But isn’t interesting how tomorrow never comes?
We say “Oh I’ll do this later.” I don’t know how many times I said I would do something later and never ended up doing it. I’m sure you all can relate to that in some extent. Why do we do this to ourselves when it’s something we want? What stops us from doing it? I have come to learn that it usually boils down to two things we are either too lazy to put in the effort it takes or we are scared it won’t work out. I know I have been both of those ways.
Honestly before I lost all the weight is was so lazy. A lot of it had to do with the fact that I was extremely depressed, but I just kept using that as my excuse not to do anything. When in irony my depression gets a lot better to manage when I am busy, because I’m not sitting around thinking about a bunch of sad things. But I had to finally decide to get off my lazy bum and take control of my life.
I don’t know about you, but I know I could just sit and makes excuses all day if I let myself. I am so done with that. I’ve decided I’m going to go after what I want and I’m not going to let anybody (especially myself) stop me. It’s just figuring out all I want to do that is hard. I prayed to God on the way home from the movies. In the prayer I just told him that I know he has a huge purpose for my life and if he leads me to it I will glorify him with it.
It was weird is suddenly didn’t feel as anxious driving home because I knew God had me. I knew he was going to keep me safe because of my purpose on this Earth. I don’t know all that God has in store for me right now, but I know that he has a plan and it’s better than I could imagined. I’ve already seen this in my life. Sometimes I wanted something to work out so bad, but then God shut the door on it and lead me to something better. I know he knows my heart and dreams better than anyone else and I’m so excited to see how he will make them even more than I thought possible!
So what is it you’re after? Find it out and just go for it! You are meant to do amazing things. All you have to do is take that first step and the rest will lead you on your way.
I hope you all had a lovely day! Write to you again tomorrow,