“Cat: Where are you going?
Alice: Which way should I go?
Cat: That depends on where you are going.
Alice: I don’t know.
Cat: Then it doesn’t matter which way you go.” – Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
You ever feel so close to something you can almost taste it? That’s how I feel in my life right now. It’s like I’m linking bits and pieces of what I want to do with my life. I honestly feel like many people around my age are in the same boat. We got a taste of what we want out of life, but we haven’t quite figured out what the thing is that we want to do.
I envy those who have always had a clear set on what they wanted to do with their life. I can remember at the age of 7 I went through several ideas on careers I wanted to do. I remember at one point I was thinking about being a flight attendant which thinking about today seems kind of terrifying because I’m now scared of heights, yet I still find that neat. Then it moved on to a popstar. Yes, laugh it up you guys. I wanted to be a famous singer and look like Britney Spears. I was determined. I even told my mom when I turned 18 I was moving to California. This dream went on until like my freshmen year of high school then I realized that maybe I wasn’t the best singer haha.
I then looked at other options. It was then in my senior year of high school I fell in love with theater. I took a class that my boyfriend at the time recommended and I was absolutely in awe of it. I woke up every morning looking forward to it and not to toot my own horn *toot, toot* I was pretty good at it. Which for me that was Heaven because I hadn’t felt good at anything in a really long time. I didn’t see how I could make a living off of it though so I decided to try to look into other passions of mine.
When I went on to college and tried to go for a degree in digital media. I found I loved the creative aspect, but typography bored me to pieces and I felt discouraged when my digital art wasn’t as good as the others in my class. I did however find out that I loved creative photography and video. The other things I learned however I didn’t much care for at all.
Finally I get to where I am today and realize since I’ve lost 60 lbs I’m extremely interested in health and fitness as well. I love studying it and practicing it in my life. I also would love to share what I have learned with other people to help them. It would be so neat to see their lives transform by helping them grow their knowledge of how to care for themselves physically and mentally.
Recently, no surprise I have grown closer to writing again. No matter what I wanted to be in my life in the past there was always one thing that was there..writing. I would write songs when I wanted to be a singer, I wrote scripts when I wanted to be in theater, I wrote short stories/ books in between deciding what I did want to do (no they weren’t published haha), and I also secretly had another blog when I was first losing the weight that I told no one about.
As you can see I’ve went through many passions throughout my life and now I’m just trying to figure out how the heck I can fit them all together. If anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear some because I’ve been going crazy trying to think how I can do a little of all. Tonight I also have a question for all of you reading. What are all of you passionate about? What makes you wake up in the morning? I’d love to hear from you all!
Bye until tomorrow,