Positively Optimistic Day #32- I’m Not Sorry for What I’m About to Say..

You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope some day you’ll join us, and the world will be as one. – John Lennon 

Sometimes I just want to become an alien and move to Mars. Is there anyone with me? Today I just keep reflecting about how cold the world can sometimes be. To be more specific I keep thinking about how much discrimination exists in this world. Probably because I experienced a case of this yesterday and its remaining fresh in my head.

Yesterday  I had a guest refuse for me to take his order just because I had some spills on my apron. He told the host that I was too “dirty” to take his order and gave me that label of “dirty.” Which after having a horrible morning was the last thing I wanted to hear. Plus I hate feeling dirty. I take pride in smelling good and keeping up with looking the best I can.

On a side note I will admit I wasn’t looking the best yesterday because I frankly didn’t care. I had heard that an old friend of mine had passed away, and even though I hadn’t talked to her in a long time it still made me feel extremely sad. She was older so I wasn’t really surprised to hear, but it just made me feel this intense feel of depression.

I think it’s because it seems like so many people I have known have died in such a short period of time and I guess yesterday it just hit me that people really do die. That they are no longer on this Earth living. You may be thinking “Amber that’s obvious.” And yes, you are correct, but death has always been hard for me to grasp. It’s like for some reason I pretend like it doesn’t exist.

Just really taking in that death is really a real thing broke me inside. Because I realized I don’t know when it’ll be my time and more than anything it made me scared to lose those who matter to me the most. Especially my parents because they are both getting older and aren’t taking the best care of their health.

Regardless I walked into work feeling and looking like utter crap because of trying to get my head around this all. Honestly all I wanted to do was cry in a hole and just be left there a few days, but I went into work because I thought that was better than moping around plus I needed the money. Then I got this guy who called me “dirty” and made me feel more crappier than I already felt.

I was told today that, that guy isn’t all there anyways because he has come in before being difficult, but it still hurt me. It was the first time in a while I felt that someone was discriminating me. People think it’s a matter of race for people to get discriminated. It’s not a race thing; however, I do agree that different skin colors receive more discrimination. Discrimination effects all races though; just some more unfortunately than others because of others wrongful labels.

One of my first memories was actually of discrimination. Not of me, but of my sister. For those of you who do not know my sister has developmental delay with autistic tendencies. I usually just say autism because that’s much easier for people to understand. Anyways, besides the point one of my first memories was of me and my sister in a McDonalds play place and we asked for these other girls to play with us, but they wouldn’t because my sister was autistic.

Luckily today the world is becoming more understanding of people with special needs, but there was a time when the world wasn’t as kind. And my poor sister got to see that firsthand. People bullied her horribly all because of a thing that she couldn’t control. When I really think about discrimination I just think about how stupid it is. To judge someone based on their skin color or mental ability ect. It’s as stupid as it was stupid that I was judged about spots on my apron. Yet people do it anyway. It sounds mean and I probably shouldn’t feel this way, but sometimes I wish that people who discriminated others would for one day go through it themselves just to know what it feels like.

I was talking to some of my coworkers today and they have also said how they have been discriminated based on their race and religion, and I can’t tell you how mad that makes me. It makes me outraged! I just don’t know how someone could think it’s ok to put others down or treat them like their not human based on those kind of things. At the end of the day we are all human regardless of our differences.

This is why I think “Imagine” by the great John Lennon is one of the best songs ever written. Simply because of the lyrics. This amazing man pointed out how we let things like religion, countries, and possessions separate us all from each other. That’s what we do when we discriminate each other. We are putting people into these categories like they are a folder on your computer.

We humans are different from each other, yet we are all the same. We all just want the same things like love, happiness, acceptance. We are all here roaming the Earth, and we whether we like to admit it or not are going to face death. No matter the other stuff every single human is born and dies. Both things don’t care if you are rich, if you are white, if you are a certain religion. We all go through those two same things.

As a person who got bullied growing up for probably everything imaginable I hope one day the younger generations will realize how wrong it is to discriminate or bully others. Now at the same token I want to be honest and say I haven’t always been the best either. I can proudly say I have never bullied someone or discriminated against anyone.

However I have gossiped about people with others when they weren’t around if that person annoyed me and I have not stood up to others when I seen bullying go on which I feel like is no better. I’m sure many of you can relate to this whether you want to admit it or not. Heck even my sister has talked crap about people and she was bullied more heavily than I ever was haha. I think we mostly just gossip because we have nothing else we know to talk about so we have to complain about that “lazy co worker” or that “annoying classmate.” Yet do we really need to talk about them? No we don’t.

I have met so many people who could just gossip all day, but even if that person you are gossiping about doesn’t hear you that doesn’t make it right? I don’t think so. I decided I’m not going to partake in that anymore. I hope those of you who are reading this will do the same. Together by doing this we can help create a more positive life for the people around us and also help inspire the generations that look up to us.

Today I want to challenge all of us, myself included, to just stop putting others down. Whether it’s harmless to that person or not. What we say still says mountains about our character. And I choose that I want to better my character. To try to help the world get a little closer to the vision great people like Martin Luther King Jr., John Lennon, Mother Teresa, Ghandi and so many others wanted. How about you? The choice is yours.

Write you all tomorrow,

Amber ❤️❤️❤️

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