“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.”- Martin Luther King, Jr.
Lately I’ve felt very overwhelmed because there are big decisions I need to make and whatever decision I make will effect my life in either a positive or negative way. The scary part is I don’t know which will will be negative and which one will be positive. All I know is I just really want the positive one. I just really want a sign to what I should do.
It feels like I’m a ball in a casino where I’m just spinning around and around without stopping. And then as soon as I think I’m about to slow down some drunkard comes and pushes it again and there I go spinning again. That is a really strange example so I apologize haha but you get the point. I just feel like I’m spinning without really knowing where I’m going. And that for me is scary.
Don’t get me wrong I love that life is unpredictable. It would be boring if we knew every single thing that was going to happen to us. Yet I just sometimes wish I knew the decision that would lead me to the best path. I’m currently trying to debate which is going to help me out on my life journey/ goals and what is going to hinder it. What is so frustrating about it all though is that it seems like it’s one of those things where it’s like “I’m danged if I do, danged if I don’t”.
I have to remind myself though that I need to trust in God’s way. Whatever way I go I know he will follow me and that will be the best decision. Whether I like it or not I know I need to make a decision. I just have to be willing to take the first step in making the decision. Like the legendary Martin Luther King Jr. said “Faith is taking the first step, even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” Which let me tell you from a person who’s fallen on her bum from missing a step on a staircase..it’s not that easy, but I know that the hardest part is just taking that first step.
Even though this is all really hard on me I’m just going to stay positive that no matter what I choose I will learn from it and that it is the right decision for me. If you are all going through something similar know I feel for you and know that I believe in you. We are all going to get through this stumble. Just find comfort in fact that you are never alone. And no matter what choice you make you will get through this! Love you all!
And talk to you again tomorrow,