“It was amazing how you could get so far from where you’d planned, and yet find it was exactly were you needed to be.” – Sarah Dessen
Lately I’ve been struggling with making a decision. It was because I thought one was really what I wanted. But I’m coming to realize what we think we want isn’t sometimes what we need. I mean I can think of this happening in the past. Like one of the toxic relationships I was in. At the time I was in those relationships I wanted to be in them so bad that I didn’t want to give them up even if it was what was best for me.
The point is sometimes we don’t always know what’s best for us. Recently I’ve had to make a decision about my job and I finally made one which was the one I’d least expect I’d go with. It wasn’t the decision I thought I’d go with to be honest, but I kept feeling like it was the one I needed to make for right now. I kept praying about it and it felt like God was leading me in the opposite direction of where I wanted to go. That’s when it hit me that I’ve gone by my way so many times in my life and have failed, but when I followed his way I could see why he had me do it.
Even with my decision to stay in Florida instead of moving back to Indiana. Every logical sense of it said to move back home. But when I prayed about it I felt a tugging in my heart to stay. I don’t know what else God has planned for me in the future, but even in just this short amount of time he has showed me why I needed to stay. I’ve already learned so many valuable lessons and have grown so much stronger in my faith and as a person.
Even if you aren’t religious I just want to tell you that sometimes the right decisions aren’t the ones we want to hear. In this world we don’t always get what we want right away and guess what that is totally ok with me. I can’t imagine what dark pit I’d be living in if I had gotten some of the things I wanted at the time I wanted them. I can’t imagine it and honestly I don’t want to because I know it wouldn’t have been good.
So I want to install in you all if you are not getting something you want right now. That relationship, the new car, a fancy paycheck, your dream job, ect…just know that this probably means you have something better planned for your future. Most likely after not getting what you want at the time you will find that wasn’t really what you wanted in the first place and look back years later to think how silly that was. Now I’m not saying don’t go after what you want. All I’m saying is don’t be worried if sometimes your path goes in a different direction then you thought it would.
This may sound ridiculous to you, but I’m glad this is true. How boring would life be if everything just always worked out the way it wanted it to? In hindsight it looks great, but when you really think about it, it’s not. It’s kind of like if you inherited a bunch of money because your family is rich. Yeah money is nice. I honestly love money haha. But regardless it’s much more satisfying that if I earned that million dollars rather than if I was just given it. The same goes with our circumstances. If we got everything to work out for us then what would even be the point of trying?
Life is unexpected. Sometimes this means horrible things happen. Yet other times when the unexpected happens, something wonderful will come from it. You may think it’s unfair or be mad at the time if things don’t work out the way you want them to, but if you just go with it I almost can promise you that things will work out better than you thought it would. It won’t be your way. But it will be the best way for you!
Until tomorrow my lovelies,