“If you want to fly on the sky, you need to leave the earth. If you want to move forward, you need to let go the past that drags you down.” -Amit Ray
This journey has been full of great things, but lately I’ve been having to deal with the dark side of this journey. I saw that every time I started to make a change something from my past came up to make me feel stuck. I kept trying to ignore it, but it would end up just coming back up again. I realized that the only way I’m going to be able to move on completely is to deal with it and let it go.
We all have different things in our past that aren’t the best and we tend to drag along with us. It may have been something someone did to you or something you feel guilty of that you did. I’ve had to deal with both of those things in this period, and it has been one of the hardest things. For me I’ve always had a thing of holding on to every thing. I could honestly be the queen of holding grudges over other people and especially myself.
I’d like to tell you I’ve had that Elsa moment in my life where I’m dancing and singing “Let it Go” and I just don’t give a crap anymore, but for most of us it’s not that easy as saying that. It takes a lot of mental work and learning to forgive. It’s a process.
As I left the house today I saw a bunch of little girls outside playing and laughing with one another. I was sad pretty much all day today to be honest, but then I saw them all having fun laughing together and it put a smile on my face. It made me think of a quote that goes “If you have trouble forgiving yourself think of yourself as a child who at the time was just doing the best they can.”
That really hit me hard. Because at the end of the day we are all may be adults but in reality we are grown up child just trying in this world. That being said we are human at every age and we are going to go through things and we are going to make mistakes. It doesn’t benefit us any if we just keep putting ourselves down because of our past. Unfortunately we can’t change the past, but what we can do is learn from it and choose to not give it the power to destroy us.
I want you all to know if you are going through a difficult time trying to get through your past that you are never alone. I completely understand the struggle. It’s so hard, but as tough as it is I know you are tougher and will be able to get past it.
Lots of Love..Talk to you all tomorrow,