“Find your authentic voice, become vulnerable, and then put yourself out there.” – Meredith Brooks
You ever been hurt so bad you’re afraid to let anything else in? I know I have. You’re scared if you take a chance you’ll just be hurt like you were before. I have this problem in particular when it comes to relationships. No matter what kind they are. It could be a romantic relationship, friend relationship, or family relationship.
Today I come into the coffee shop as per usual and there’s this guy looking at me and smiling. Once, I might think he’s a friendly gent. Twice, maybe I got something in my teeth. Three times…does he like me? I text my friend because I’m freaking out internally. Now this guy comes in frequently like I do, but I never noticed him glancing at me so much.
Then by a dramatic turn of events this handsome stranger messages me on Instagram. At first I didn’t realize it was him, but it said “hey coffee cutie”. I then look to my left and see him looking up again.
“No, no this can’t be the same guy.”
I reply to the message and it was him however. He then waves for me to come over. We then start talking in person for a bit.
Now I don’t know if this will lead into anything, but I’m proud of myself for just trying. For trying again with love even if it’s hard for me to. It’s incredibly hard to put myself out there after some of the relationships I’ve been in, but I feel like I’m ready to put my heart out there again. Because I have a better understanding of myself and what I want in life. I’m willing to put myself and what I want first before a guy. And for that I’m really impressed with myself.
The message I want to put out there for you all today is not be scared to put yourself out there. But also know who you are and what you want out of any relationship you have in life. Not just romantic. Have standards for your friends too. Surround yourself with people who will bring you up, not down. Just have the bravery to be open to it again.
Love you all!
Talk again tomorrow,