When I see you, I think “I wonder which face she sees when she looks into the mirror.”
― C. JoyBell C.
As a little girl I had this illusion that people were how they were in front of my face all the time. But as I grew up I learned that people sometimes act one way in front of you but completely different when you’re not around. I had so many people act this way to me so much growing up I got really good at reading people.
Sometimes this is a blessing, but sometimes I feel like it’s a curse. Just because I can sense how people really are and that either makes me not like being around them because I see something dark or I see a bright light that I want to bring out of them. Sometimes I think it would be easier to be obvious of these things. I could just think people were actually being nice all the time. Or I wouldn’t have to feel like trying to bring the light out of someone who seems to have been broken, to the point where it has drained me in the past.
Besides the point, I can tell easily now if someone is two faced or not. And the sad reality is so many people are. In all honesty I think I’ve met more two faced people in my life then I have meet real people. So many people get such a kick out of drama and talking crap about one another. Which I never have understood.
Sometimes I wonder if that’s why I’ve always had trouble fitting in. I have never been fake to people. I always try to be nice to everyone regardless if I don’t like them or not, but I will not act like I like them when I don’t. There’s a difference in showing someone respect even when you don’t like them than acting like their best friend just to go talk crap about them with someone else.
Unfortunately with the job that I work at now I work with many people that are like this. I love many of my coworkers don’t get me wrong, but many of them are very two faced. Which is why I’m strongly considering looking for another job, because it’s gotten to the point I absolutely hate going to work because of how they all act.
However one of my one friends at work gave me great advice to just focus on making the money and not on the people. I feel like this is important in life. Not to focus on money, but to not focus on those people. To rather focus on the things that do matter. If people have to act like that it’s not you; it’s them. And you don’t need to waste your precious energy caring about their opinions.
Today I want to dare you and myself to do this. To stop wasting time on people who are not really there for you. To stop caring what these people think. And to use this energy towards people who actually care about us or us it for things that will help us in the end. Well that’s all I got for you all today I’m pooped from work haha.
Talk to you all tomorrow,